coming home

finally a rest day!
firstly let me rant about outward bound school.
it was really frustrating cos i couldnt do most of the activities as my knees were freakin sprained.
i couldnt even sit on the floor during group meetings wtf.
had to sit on a chair whilst everyone else was on the floor.
lets see..
i couldnt do wall climbing, rock climbing, jungle trekking, solo camping, circuit games, and bloody hell even jogging.
felt completely useless.
but had fun with the wroughtoners =)
though we were regrouped randomly, we still made it a point to gather every oppurtunity we had.
that was the only fun bit for me.
our dorm was 106 steps high so climbing that itself was shyt for me.
sigh.
i was already home sick by the 3rd day.
i guess mainly cos we had no phones or access to the outside world.
and i just missed everyone so much =(
anyway i left obs 2 days earlier cos of graduation.
i really thought i would cry when i see my dad when he picked me up from the bus station but managed to behave la lol.
but entered the house only to find it decorated with banners and balloons... zzzz
super cry habis la hahha.
and  my sis said that my mum did everything.
sighh.
unpacking was a bytch lol.
cos i didnt even do anything there and i had to carry so much of shyt around.
one huge suitcase and an even bigger camping back pack that is almost as tall as me :S
fck outdoors bullshyt man.
lol.

was not in the mood for graduation at all cos my face was super dark.
one of the activities that i actually managed to take part it was called whaling.
its a rowing activity but the shyt part was that we had to row the boat all the way to pangkor (from lumut) and that was freaking SIX HOURS and we were rowing from 10 to 4pm under the maddddd hotttt sun!
shyt man.
that was one of the worst times of my life.
felt hot, nauseous, headache, hungry and i just wanted to jump into the sea and die!
crazyyyyyyyyyyy
and only to reach pangkor and need to set up tents (which is shyt mind you) and start fire, NO TOILETS, bugs everywhereee omggggg i hated itttttttttttttttttttttttttt
ok back to graduation lol,
i was really glad my friends came =)
they might not get how much it means to me but it made a hell of difference.
thanks guys =)
and thank you god for not letting me see unwanted people.
its pretty cool how everyone else saw except me.
THANK YOU GOD =)

my family members came too except sunitha cos she was sick =(
was really hoping to take pics with her.
but i didnt know they were organising a surprise party for me!
my mum just told me that we're going to a photo studio for a shot and i was really irritated cos we took so many pics already.
and i was such in a foul mood only to enter the room and tada!
everyone was there (including sunitha hahha) with a cake lighted up (choc indulgence!) and even more decorations.
hahahha
couldnt help lamely crying cos i was just so touched and also, i felt so guilty for being so bytchy prior to thisss.
sighhh
it was a karoake room!
lol.
all 20 of us were singing english, tamil, hindi, malay songs lol.
got lotsa presents =)
but feel super guilty la cos everyone had to waste money =(

it was a great party!
the actual graduation part sucked.
i knew i'd hate it.
but seeing rache shal & ck was the best part and also, the party!
THANK YOU!

now i gotta do lotsa laundry, clean up my room, clean the whole house!
my left knee still aches ballz cos had to climb onto chairs during group photography yday.
cant wait for it to recover man.
2 freakin weeks of handicapness.
IT SUCKED.

cant wait to see my colleagues tomoro to hear about how obs ended.
cant wait to celebrate we-survived-obs with them end of the week
cant wait to see my bees on sunday!
aunts housewarming party on saturday
need to start planning my sis's 21st.
april's a busy busy month.
but better busy than shyt
march was the shyttest of shyt!

anyway what i learnt from obs;
im gonna start appreciating everyone and everything around me, gonna talk more with my parents, gonna be even closer with my friends and cousins cos you only realise how nicely they have been treating you when you're surrounded with other people.

okay im dead tired.
have a great month!